Anonymous asked: You seem like a really nice dude, I'd love to get to know you but I feel like a dork saying it..
I try my best to be. :D Come off Anon?
Welp, now I’m single. Shit sucks. I just want a relationship with someone who won’t run away at the first sight of love. I need someone who is willing to take a chance.
I always start getting better and I just slip up or something happens and I plummet to the bottom. I really don’t want to be here - on this earth. I don’t know what is wrong with me, but I feel like I’m not allowed to be happy. I just want someone to be ready to commit to a relationship and hold it through. I don’t want to be lead on. I don’t want to feel like this. It’s scary how good I am at smiling and laughing throughout all of this bullshit. I just want to be happy for once in five years for longer than a couple of hours.
FUCK. OA;IWJEFOIAWJEFO;GUIHIRULHGNLIUNA;OWEHFLIUABEFOIUHR;OAWNE;OFIHRILA;HJWNEOH;IFHLAWUEHG FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. NOW IS THE TIME I WISH I COULD PUNCH HOLES IN MY WALLS. FUCK. I NEED TO SCREAM.
Our relationship seems to be slowing down. As of late, we’ve barely talked to each other. I try getting her to talk to me, but she barely answers, and when she does, it’s hours later. It drives me crazy. I just miss her. She says that when she is upset, she shuts out the world. She doesn’t talk about problems or seek help. We haven’t really talked in the past week and I really hate it.. I’m worried about her and what’s been going on. She won’t talk to me or tell me what’s wrong and won’t let me help her, if I can. She won’t let me in and it feels like I don’t know her.. I told her I was falling for her but I was afraid to admit it, because of how much my last relationship ended fucked me up, but that she makes me so happy. She said she wasn’t looking for love and that’s all she said. I don’t know. I’m probably over thinking everything, but I miss her so much and I’m worried about her.. It’s to the point where I’m physically ill at this point. I want to vomit. I want to help her and it drives me crazy that I can’t help. She said she wasn’t upset, but she wasn’t happy. She started talking a little bit the other day, but the subject changed quickly.. I don’t know what to do. I just want to hold her. She’s my first relationship in over a year. She’s so important to me. I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose her.
auburnxsunsets asked: Jealous?
No, I’m Chris.
Every time I try to be happy, something goes wrong. I always put others first before myself, and when I finally try to do something for myself, I’m doing something wrong. I hate hurting people, but I’m always in conflict. Do I make myself happy for one night and hurt someone, or do I feel uncomfortable and out of place for a whole night? I feel I’m not allowed to be happy. Fuck.
Anonymous asked: i think we all know who youd be happy with
Who would that be?
Anonymous asked: I miss you so much.
If you miss me, then please tell me or talk to me off of Anonymous.
I haven’t been this happy for well over a year now. I feel like I’m on top of the world.
Tumblr, I don’t understand what’s wrong with gore. Why are blogs allowed to post porn of all kinds, but not gore? I mean, they can be both as desirable and undesirable as each other. Both can be disturbing and fucked up. Not everyone wants to see porn on their dashboard and not everyone wants to see gore, so why is gore not allowed, but porn is? They both should be viewed by those who are eighteen years of age or older, but it’s easier to see porn than gore, and your policy says that those who are thirteen or older are allowed to use a tumblr. Either get rid of porn AND gore, or allow both of them.
Gore is a part of life, and it intrigues the mind and opens the thought process and brings the humans back to their roots when gore was seen every day. There’s nothing wrong with gore. It’s shocking, but it’s real, and it’s we as humans should be aware of. This is what happens and what we look like after death due to accidents, suicide, homicide, etc. It’s a reason why I decided not to commit suicide, as well. What if my mother saw me like that? I would hate for her to see that. Allow gore.
Ffffffffffffffff. I want to cry and I don’t even know what’s wrong.
I turned eighteen today! I’ve been having a great day so far! Yesterday and last night was really special too! I doubt I’ll forget it.
p0rnographe asked: it wasnt me but i was just looking at your blogand i really liked your answer, you fucking sweetheart :)
OH I THOUGHT YOU HATE MY BLOG. =P But thank you. =]
